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Fire Ant Attack

Wow… this month has been overwhelmingly full of MS posts… ūüėõ usually I only post about 4-7 posts on this site, but the local MS Walk is taking place on April 10th, and March is MS month… since I don’t feel up to walking with my fellow MS/supporter peeps, this has been my way of virtually walking… and getting out the links for those that wish to donate… but donation can be so much more than money… understanding and support is just as important, at least in my opinion… if you can do either, I (as a Multiple Sclerosis sufferer) thank you…

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when I saw this picture on pinterest, I immediately thought of MS and the horrible leg pain I used to go through before my favorite PA at my neurologist came up with mixture of meds to help…

every minute of every day, 24/7, I could feel these angry Fire Ants attacking my legs… and every few seconds those invisible ants would send out an electrical shock, a stabbing pain… it was unbearable… until my PA came along, I was depressed and unsure if I could make it year in and year out with the pain…

not to mention the lack of sleep… there is no way to close your eyes and rest when you are being attacked by fire and electricity… even my penchant hot baths to relieve pain would¬†only help so much… it took forever (if it worked at all) for my legs to stop hurting, and as soon as I got out of the tub, the ants came¬†back…

imagine that pain you get after one of your limbs (legs or arms) falls asleep and then you move around and the blood rushes back in where the circulation was cut off… that is nothing compared to the Fire Ant pain… it is not only an attack on the body, but after months of living with something that¬†refuses to¬†go away, it becomes an attack on¬†your mental health… there is not point to continue,¬†not when you feel like no¬†one¬†will ever help you… that no one believes you… after all, it’s all in your head, right???

well, it may be all in your head, but there is a way to help… Gabapentin – miracle drug, along with a muscle relaxant, and those deadly ants only visit when I forget to take my medicine¬†on time…

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Let’s Go Swimming

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Swimming has always been a therapeutic thing for me… but ever since I got sick, I have found that a warm bath will put me right to sleep… I swear, ten minutes in a nice warm tub and I am fast asleep… when I can’t sleep, I get in the tub and the next thing I know, it is ten in the morning… I spend hours in the watery bed… I prefer to call it swimming… lol… I don’t know if water does it for other Multiple Sclerosis patients, but for me it is my number one relaxation…

there are nights when my brain just won’t turn off… story ideas run through my mind, running loops through my internal hamster wheel… the only way to turn off the voices is to soak them out… lol… now, I hate edits, but I love to make up new stories… new ways for my characters to grow… right now, that is my Skymann family… I just got done running through some edits for the first book in the series, and off to the beta reader it flew… but that means there is room for the voices to start throwing out more ideas, more stories and characters…

But its about more than relaxing and brainstorming… the warmth of the tub has been my only escape from the pain in my legs and back when nothing else will work… miss firing electrons??? that’s what my doctors all say… I even went to a pain doctor, but she flat out said she didn’t like to treat MS patients because they can never get better… WTH??? So I will continue to soak and think, until the MS doctors realize that there are different types of pain for an MS patient, and only the patient can know what will and won’t work… (at least this is the way I see it for me)

there are the headaches that no amount of pain pill will help, though a vasodilator will relieve… (a pill that my doctors have chosen to stop prescribing, that god my headaches have become few and far between)… number two would be the joints and muscle pains… which I have found are better dealt with in a warm tub… it is a type of pain that reminds me of having the flu… everything aches… a warm bath helps…

and finally, there is the leg and back pain that makes me want to amputate something… it is a step above and beyond flu aches… it is an evil that refuses to go away… and something that has me spending eight hours in the bathtub… it is a pain that robs me of more sleep than any other internal voice could hope of stealing… and it is a pain that I know from experience responds to pain pills, but what do I know… its just my body…