Hello bladder issues…

Well, another day in the life of MS…. now my bladder has decided to become a silent assassin… yep… that is what I have… the organ is killing me, and doing it by sneaking up on me (usually when I first wake up, but hey, all hours of the day are fair game) and leaking by either dribbles or gallons…

and being me, I decided to tell anyone and everyone… why??? because it is embarrassing as all get out… and I have found that repeatedly sharing your horror & embarrassment helps to lessen that feeling, and the need to hide…

and it turns out, a lot of women pee on themselves… lol… so far, no men have stepped up and said “hey… I always have to worry about bathroom access…”

at my writer’s meeting the other day, we do updates on or progress, creativity, and whatnot… and one of my fellow writers also has MS… she is writing about her life with MS… so of course, her share time reminded me that ‘hey… I had some great fodder for her book’… after I blurted out that my latest MS-kick-in-the-pants (wet pants) was bladder weakness, she said “I’m the exact opposite… I feel like I am about to pee on myself, and then sit there for hours, not able to go…”

so I replied “I would be happy to trade you…” lol…

then at my cousin’s birthday get together (yep, I did say I shared my embarrassment anywhere and everywhere) I told some of our mutual friends about my leaky pipes, and one woman started nodding “I would work all day, with a bathroom right there, and never have to go… then on the way home it would hit me… some days I couldn’t even make it into the house… just stood in the driveway peeing all over myself…” she said…

I replied “sometimes I’m just like…” and here I looked down into my lap “well that just happened…”

and it is sooo true… my bladder has decided to stop alerting me to impending disaster… and if I forget to go to the restroom that one extra time (even if I went thirty minutes prior) I always wake up in trouble… one wrong move, one cough (oh don’t get me started on coughing and bladder issues) and flood gates open…

lol… later guys… I think I will run to the bathroom now… Tracey

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Wellllll…. heck… sure is nice to know I am not alone in this… it is embarrassing but yes, yes I have wet my pants like an un-potty-trained toddler… for the most part it isn’t that bad… but I look a little insane at times… I mean, I am 35 years old… and I rush to cross my legs every time I feel a sneeze coming on… Why??? because I don’t want to pee all over myself… and sneezing seems to be my trigger…

and heaven help me if don’t notice the sneeze/cough before it happens… grr… and the problem of a full bladder… especially first thing in the morning… you know, that moment when you want just a few more minutes of sleep, and you convince yourself that peeing isn’t that important… because, hey… you can hold it for five more minutes… HA… I don’t think so… if I wake up and need to pee, I get up and pee… there is no waiting…

it is like my bladder, my body, has forgotten how to hold it… I feel the need to run to the restroom, and it is probably too late… for the love of mud, let the cursing begin… and the vacation rule ‘have you used the bathroom??’ is in effect every time I leave the house… don’t feel the need??? too bad… get in the bathroom and try just in case… yep…

it reminds me of one of our vaca trips, where we took two cars and used CB radios… and when my grandmother needed a restroom break??? mom got on the CB and said “breaker, breaker, we have a senior citizen with a bladder control problem…” lol… mom got wacked on the back of the head, and we all laughed… more at the fact that mamaw was beating up the driver than anything else… but the whole thing was hilarious…

Well, I feel like someone is on some mystical CB every day now, and let me tell you… NOT SO FUNNY…. but I am 35 dangit, and I will pack baby wipes and extra under pants before I pull on a pair of depends… you hear me MS… I will not go down without a fight… grr… 😛

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